THANKS and by the way…
Posted by thecanvasgrey on April 17, 2008
First, thanks to all of you who’ve been keeping us in your thoughts and prayers. I really feel them in my heart and soul. THANK YOU for them. I really do sit in thoughtful prayer for you as well. I’m a big giver so when I receive I tend to give back even more. Your continued thoughts and prayers of support are very appreciated. As we know more of the details I’ll share them. Right now we are in a holding pattern but circling the airport. ha!
I have several things that are pressing, several things that must come out, I’m compelled.
I’ve done a dozen or so posts on autism. I think highly of so many bloggers who are autistic or parents of autistic children. I respect them, their view of things, their frustration of things, their joy of things, their need to help others understand, agree, being able to learn and grow. Just knowing how nice it is to reach out to each other when needed is a wonderful thing.
In this age of “bi-polar-isms” I refuse to define my precious, sweet son by autism, nor will I. He is smart, loving, handsome like his dad (of course), very tall, a reader, into astrology, a thinker, a dreamer, he hums happy tunes, still likes to skip (me too…like Phoebe from friends), likes routine (like his dad), sounds just like his brother (vice-versa) when he talks, has an amazing memory, adores his third grade teacher, can easily entertain himself, becomes deeply involved with things he enjoys, can’t concentrate on things he doesn’t and more, more, more.
So what am I getting at??? I’ve been holding my son’s story close (odd because I share so easily) but I’m nervous it will define him. Or WORSE, that HE thinks that is how I define HIM.
God has been pushing gently at me from many directions and I had my AHA moment this morning, NO FEAR. I now know I’m to post it, I’m compelled to post it. In faith I will post it and pray that it reaches those that it is supposed to reach and help. In faith I will post it believing that my son will KNOW that autism is only a small sliver of who he is, something to help him in his life’s journey and that I love him more than words. Amen. Thank you God for love, mercy, all things seen and unseen.